UNDER COMMAND

Mental reservation, life´s under command
Instruction, restriction
You are fired from yourself

Soul´s crying, will´s dying
sour poison in your vains
Your desire lies in ruins, everything fades away

Squeezing souls wince with pain
Death of glory
Your lifestories toss in mind

Oh, the sky is falling, no time to say goodbye
No, the dreams are flying away, now

With angel´s smile stabbing knife in to your back
No mercy, no respect
God´s playing games with us

The doors are closed forever
In Christmas-Box there´s no suprise
Like hounted fugitive
forced forward to the fall

Oh, the sky is falling, no time to say goodbye
No, the dreams are flying away
Oh, the skies are burning, red sun above
No, your world has collapsed, now

EMPTY VISION

Try to find the reason, take me as Iam
And my empty vision, help me understand

Too long I've been dreaming, floating in the air
Everything I've seen is ..stuck in my dreamland

I can't watch myself, still under attack
Excitement in my mind, keeps pushing me back

What's wrong, I keep crawling back
And they can't wait, to meet me there

What's wrong, I failed again
Goin' back , I'm goin' back

And everytime Iam afraid ...
... they want me to stay !
It tears me up , like a devil keeps burning my soul ! again !

Come and join my journey, see the other side
Wake me in the morning, help me to survive

Everytime I'm dreaming, chaos in my head
Nothing Ibelieve in, nothing left ahead

I can't watch myself, still under attack
Excitement in my mind, keeps pushing me back

What's wrong .....

And every time i am afraid ...
... they want me to stay !
It tears me up , like a devil keeps burning my soul !

And every time i am afraid ...
... they want me to stay !
It tears me up , like a devil keeps burning my soul !

Try to find the reason, take me as Iam
And my empty vision, help me understand

Too long I've been dreaming, floating in the air
Everything I've seen is ... stuck in my dreamland

I can't watch myself, still under attack
Excitement in my mind, keeps pushing me back

TIME TO PAY

Time to pay, facing your fate
Wildest dream, your darkest hour
I‘m the messiah, creator, destroyer
Bloody night, senseless fight

From fear you‘re dyin‘, goin‘ insane
In the dark, there‘s no way out
From fear you‘re dyin‘, no more sane
Headless cross, burns in your hands

Now ... recall all your sins
Now ... Think of your past
You used to think, it‘ll go on and on
Forever, you will carry on

It turns your day into the night
Keeps you so scared deep down inside
Full of fear, for all i care ... wake up !

Now ... I‘m getting closer
Now ... can feel me behind your back
You used to think , it‘ll go on and on
Your day has come and i‘m digging your hole !!

It turns your day into the night
Keeps you so scared deep down inside
Full of fear, for all I care

All the joy has gone away
Now full of misery and pain
Like a thousand needless, stabbing your heart ... away !

I have sinned, I know and i won‘t, no more
Help me please, I will change the way i live
Everything i‘ve done can´t be undone
Help me out somehow don‘t leave me alone !

NEVER THOUGHT

Stop, messing with my head night and day
Never thought it´d drive me so insane
Every move I thought I´d made
It´s like a thousand needles, thousand blades

Push, every sense what I have left
Deep down inside, breaking my head
Nobody knows, struggle I have
When I´m trying to reach out, for helping hand

I´m sitting in this empty scary room
Waiting in my gradma´s chair
Fighting with fire all over again
And calling it freedom, even I can´t get away !

My world, world in the dark
Turns black my dying heart

Man without will, tired and deprived
That´s how you´we seen me everytime
Smell the fear, I have no rest
I wish one day I could save myself

I´m sitting in this empty scary room
Waiting in my gradma´s chair
Fighting with fire all over again
And calling it freedom, even I can´t get away !

My world, world in the dark
Turns black my dying heart

It´s been so long with no ray of sun
Locked inside, empty and done my hope´s fading away

Blood fills my eyes, dust in the air
I´m getting slowly straight to hell rescure me from myself

Loosing my mind, this eternal fight
Somebody´s coming, it´s hot but I´m freezing

Devil and clown, keeps pulling me down
Taking my soul and leaving me forever damned !

HERE I AM

Stop this anger, blood in your eyes
Those tears feel like needless
How many times, endless lies
No time for believers

What if there‘s no life behind that wall
an empty space, nothing we know
Somebody help me out, i‘m bleeding

Greed is filling this rotten world
hate and crime ... it‘s so easy
Down in flames, no one cares
but I‘m still breathing

Watching it all keeps falling down makes me shout
Here I am
For heaven‘s sake, then or now too late, but - Here I am
One more chance, one more try I can‘t move - Here I am
I‘ve always been last in line underdog - Here I am

Sacrifying, crucifying
Hypocrites are preaching
Book of blood, art of dying
So cold, i‘m freezing

From the cloudy, blood red sky
You can hear the silence cry
sadness in the air

Desperate fight with evil
Apocalypse - final day
I‘m awake and alone

I‘m standing here and screaming
The end is near, now , today
God - save my dying soul

Watching it all keeps falling down makes me shout
Here I am
For heaven‘s sake, then or now too late, but - Here I am
Here I am ... Here I am ... Here I am ...

DIRTY GAME

It´s brand, new game, my brain, full of dirt
My mind‘s, goin‘, insane, endless sacrifice
How, can i, get out, to leave this all
Way, behind, with my temptation

Then I, am left, alone, so I will stay
Clean, because, I don´t, trust in anything
To take, with me, my thoughts, my broken dreams
I need, to be, stronger, than death itself

How far, are we willing to go now are we willing to try
To reach the point of no return
I can‘t describe, how hard I was trying to fight
This DIRTY GAME in my head
I‘m spinning in the sea of sadness

DIRTY GAME It´s DIRTY GAME

How far, are we willing to go now are we willing to try
To reach the point of no return
I can‘t describe, how hard I was trying to fight
This DIRTY GAME in my head
I‘m spinning in the sea of sadness

All, alone, I was, left to die
Blind, and def, so strong, but helpless
On, my knees, in blood, where I was found
Al-most got, me down, so desperate

Now, I am, awake, more than i have
Ever been, before, too much suffering
I cleaned, my path, my past, my evil mind
So here, i stand, face to face - reality

How far, are we willing to go now are we willing to try
To reach the point of no return
I can‘t describe, how hard I was trying to fight
This DIRTY GAME in my head
I‘m spinning in the sea of sadness

LOOSING MY SOUL

I tried to reach down, deep down inside
Just felt like I have to and everything I´ve said and done
Cant´t even remember

All my changes, are gone forever
Thousand candles ... are burning my soul
Far away from, reaching heaven
My deadly sins - made darkness my home, my home !

My choice was to fuck with everyone and everything
Deception, betrayal and pain
My faith was to get as much as I could and no turning back

And every day, my mind so full of lies,
reflect ... my desire
Feeding me, feeding this endless lust, sets me on fire

All my changes, are gone forever
Thousand candles ... are burning my soul
Far away from, reaching heaven
My deadly sins - made darkness my home, my home !

And all my angels are gone, away
No one is here today
And what I´ve learned is
I´m afraid of being alone, the same

I´m starting changing my life,
changing the way...
I lived for myself and the fame
There is never too late, never for a day
To open your heart, ... again !

And every day, my mind so full of lies,
reflect ... my desire
Feeding me, feeding this endless lust,
sets me on fire

All my changes, are gone forever
Thousand candles ... are burning my soul
Far away from, reaching heaven
My deadly sins - made darkness my home, my home !

I CAN´T WAIT

I can´t wait, to see you down I can´t wait, falling
I can´t wait, to shut your eyes forever
I can´t wait, destroying

My choice, my right, trapped inside
My sweat, my blood, on the cross
Senseless... sacrifice, rising up
Why don´t you just try, to erase my mind

And no one feels my pain, I suffer night and day
And no one knows when I´m
Looking right through her eyes

And every time I pray to take back time again
This love drives me insane, Im
Looking right through her eyes

Everyday, I can´t see it now, everyday, it´s stronger
Cleared my mind, broke the chain of past
End of days, it´s over

I was crawling in my mind and my soul
I can´t hold it ... inside me anymore
Desperation...for life I´ve never had
Crucifies me ... struggling without end

Sitting in my room and waiting for tomorrow
I´m sitting in my room, thinking of my life
Full of emptyness, last cup of sorrow
Looking for way out, I´wont swallow my pride

And the time goes by left my alone to die
for all eternity I will see those eyes
Who knows what to believe, tell me and I will bleed
The only reason, keeps helping me to survive

Lift me from the darkness, take me far away
Help me out of it, turn night into a day
say: it´s easy, I can feel it all inside
Broken and down... Goodbye